about life

Slowly the days are becoming better . I have been trying to accept things and then I get to know what to do next. I have started to make a routine. I wakeup in the morning around 8am then I do the exercise and then I relax by having coffee while listening to songs. I have thought of writing everyday as I always enjoyed writing. I am ain't specific about it but as long as I write something, I feel good. And in the evenings I go to the terrace and read book. These days I am reading a book called "Tuesdays with Morrie". This book is about the fine line between death and life. Have been learning some new things from the book. And when I need some answers about life I might read this book again and again. After reading I listen songs and walk, while enjoying the breeze and the sky. For now this has been my routine . There has been a slow change in my life. I have this feeling that I have become a bit stronger both mentally and physically. All these things have not been easy to...

 Lately a lot of things happened to me .I was constantly in the search for meaning to my life. And one fine day I have found my tribe, I  am not the only one who was going through these things. And I came to know that I am a nihilist. All day I used to go through the posts related to nihilism to make myself feel better . Nothing changed about me feeling so fucked up about life and existence being a prison .And just like all these things which happened unknowingly to me, I have suddenly got into some thoughts and finally accepted that  there is no meaning to life unless we create one . I don't know what will make me happy, but without even trying how can I be sure that nothing can make me happy. And now, I am half way through the optimistic nihilism. Still there are nights when nothing makes sense to me and people around make me feel sick, but then I think that this is how it is and it will be and after sometime I become normal. Just like me a lot of people have trouble wi...